Fan Girling - DENIAL STAGE

Fan girling is just a waste of time, I thought. All my life, I have never been became a fan of someone – who is worth my time – that is literally well-known. My mind was so close about idolizing someone we saw on televisions, internet, magazines and even in the news papers. They’re just a piece of flesh getting exposed to different interviews, saying flowering words to their fans to keep them smell good. Sounds harsh, am I? I also used to hate those fans who were crying when they saw their idols. Such a crap!

But those perceptions were changed. I noticed that I am already listening to a series of songs a couple of times, every other time to be honest. At first, I’m in the state of denial. I can’t admit it to myself that I’m admiring a British Boy Band – I’m having a hard time though. It was tough. It was like eating your own shit. So disgusting, isn’t it? All what I have said was slapping me now. Not telling anyone, I secretly followed them on twitter during my spare time. I’m afraid that they might tease the hell out of me.

I don’t know why I have their songs in my cellphone, maybe my little sister downloaded it. Did I tell you how a big fan she is? I can say she’s the one who influenced me. Before, I easily got so pissed every time she sang – out of tuned- and raise the volume of the speaker into its climax. So annoying – imagine that!

The songs were new, unfamiliar but lively to my ears. It is not hard to stamp your feet and get along with the beat. The songs are just so … carefree. Yes great choice of word. I almost memorized some of its lyrics since my sister playing it every morning before she gone for school. I’m getting used to it though. That serves my alarm clock.

When it was flashed on the local news that this boy band- I’m getting falling in love with- will be having their first concert in Manila, the thought hit the excitement inside me. Yes I admit, I am already a huge fan of ONE DIRECTION and it took a quite long time to realized it. I felt so relieved, so free.