Pain demands to be felt ..

When we fail on investing our attention, time and love to someone, we feel the pain. What kind of pain? The disappointment pain, the I-want-to-die pain, the his-not-worthy pain and so on. Pain is everywhere. It sucks! Really really sucks! It causes devastation, it’s like a catastrophe and misfortune hit you at once. While you are innocent and calm, like everything is perfect and normal, this shit will hit you bigtime! Thus, we expected any gain but at the end we accumulated loss. Pain demands to be felt .. it needs to be felt. It demands in the sense that we need it to fathom our spot to the person we clung into. To be felt in order to learn; to learn that sometimes what you thought and feel are not the best assurance you can get from the person you love.

To whom it may concern,

I thought we are fine. I thought we are doing so well, I thought. You promised and assured me that we will make it to the end; that we will do this together and no one will be left hanging. You call me I’m yours, I call you My own. Those sweet morning messages, the constant lunch reminders and those late night conversations were definitely treasures. It was perfect, yes it was!

What you did was extremely, massively and hugely bullshit! You just left me hanging, while I’m here thinking things would work between us and you’re there thinking too that things wouldn’t work for both of us. I understand all your dramas, even your random attitude. You’re such a pussy!

As what Taylor Swift’s song said, you say sorry just for show .. The damage has been done jerk. You already broke me, I give you your shot but you didn’t give your best. You had me, you wasted me. Now it’s over! I loved you and we are definitely over.